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[orphne]

What was his name?

[nullificates]

you wouldn't know him!

[orphne]

I didn't ask if I knew him.

I wanted to ask why he's special.

[nullificates]

ah, koto-chan. what do you think life in the mafia is like? honestly?

[orphne]

I don't know. Scary? Violent? Really dangerous?

[nullificates]

oh, all of the above, to infinity! beyond! i will tell you when you're a little older. it's not tasteful.

odasaku never took a life in the mafia.

[orphne]

[She's not a child, Dazai, she can guess what he's talking about. But needling him about that wouldn't get them anywhere, so she lets it go for now.]

What did he do instead?

[nullificates]

(well she does not need to know some of us are the best torturers in mafia history, perhaps in all japan, ok. some osamus. some dazais.)

anything but that. he wouldn't kill at all. he was a gentle person, despiste working for the port mafia.

[orphne]

[It sounds like he was in the wrong line of work.]

I didn't realize that was the kind of thing someone got the choice of in the mafia.

[nullificates]

not only of bloodshed do you run a mafia. but usually, no. you don't have much of a choice.

either way. it's certainly his jacket, i don't know what it's doing here.

[orphne]

He sounds like an incredible person.

Apparently sometimes stuff just... shows up here. Aragaki-senpai said someone got a whole motorbike. I got a picture of my team sitting on my bedside table the other day. My door was locked, but I'm a pretty heavy sleeper, so I don't know if someone came in and put it there or if it just... showed up. Like we do.

I don't know if it's supposed to be a reward or a punishment.

[nullificates]

(enough on odasaku, and the Betrayal of Ango, which broke his heart so hard he fucked off harder than kotone's experienced, but like, for two years. two years he abandoned chuuya without even telling him why, without saying goodbye, without any contact. instead, the only thing he ever did was to bomb his car. she thinks he was inconsiderate to her, but she has no idea half the shit chuuya has put up with in the past seven years. bless her innocence.)

no idea. i don't like this at all, so i needed to think a little! that's all.

[orphne]

[Is it enough? She doesn't think so.]

And? What did you think about while you were all alone in that hole?

[nullificates]

for me to know only.

(how to sabotage his own deal with his same-world fellows , and how not to fucking lose his shit in the process.)

[orphne]

Dazai-san...

You don't have to do everything alone, okay? Even if you think you can't rely on me, there has to be someone you can. It's too sad to be all alone.

[nullificates]

oh, it's not about you, koto-chan! i'm just a man of plenty of secrets, it's all! i have people i can count on. i'm just like this!

[orphne]

Okay.

Thank you for telling me about Odasaku-san. If you ever want to tell me more, I don't mind.

[nullificates]

haha, koto-chan. his name is oda sakunosuke. that's just how i called him.

[orphne]

I miss kaomoji

[She'd be making this face if she could >3<]

Well, I got his name in the end. Thanks, Dazai-san.

[nullificates]

you can say FACE THAT LOOKS LIKE I'M OOPS!!!!

yeah, yeah.

(haha. reason why he said all this? if she meets him, and he's sure that if oda shows up here, she'll find him with her protagonist senses, if this place wants to fuck dazai up that bad -- she can bring him to dazai. nothing is ever for free.)

[orphne]

Are you angry with me? For going with Chuuya to find you.

[nullificates]

ugh. chuuya's the worst nurse ever.

(because he can't fuck chuuya into doing what he wants :( )

but i'm not mad at you.

[orphne]

I thought he did a pretty good job, actually.

Take care of yourself, okay?

[nullificates]

you didn't see it at home!!!!!!!

(yes. they hate each other so much they live together in pain.)

ugh, ugh. ugh!!! i have no choice than to. how does someone so tiny have such loud vocal chords!!!! ugh, can you take him for a walk, koto-chan?

[orphne]

He's not a dog...

I guess I could invite him out, but I don't know if he'd be interested.