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I like spending time with my friends and learning about other people. I just want to enjoy whatever time we have together!
Live every day to the fullest! Let's explore the resort together!
I've been told I'm a good leader and listener. I'm pretty good at rescuing other people's cooking and baking disasters, and I can knit and sew. I can fight, but I'd prefer not to. My other talents are a secret. 😘
I don't really like to read, but I'll watch any kind of movie with my friends! I used to work part-time at a movie theater. I love listening to all kinds of music, especially J-pop, electronic, classical, and foreign music. 🎶
As for food... I love both ramen and sweets, but I'll try anything! Take me to your favorite food place! 😉
I like to keep my options open! 😊 Someone I can have a good time with, no matter what we're doing.
I don't really know! Buy me a drink and help me decide! 😉
.02 CLOWNS OR MIMES
Do most people have an opinion on this? 🤔
.03 SHOWER OR BATH
Bath! but shower first, then relax in the bath for like an hour 😊
.04 PIRATES OR NINJAS
Ninjas seem cooler 😄
.05 TITS OR ASS
👍
.06 COFFEE OR TEA
Both! It depends on who I'm with what kind of drink I'll order!
.07 SPICY OR SWEET
I don't mind spicy food, but I definitely prefer sweet.
.08 SUMMER OR WINTER
Summer! I like going to the beach and being outside. Winter can be tough.
.09 LEATHER OR LACE
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10. ROUGH SEX OR GENTLE SEX
Let's try both and find out. 😉
ENFP-A
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It takes her a moment to answer, taking a breath and clearly taking her time to figure out the best way to put it.]
It's not a contract, [she says finally, and as much as she'd like to avoid his gaze and look at the ground, or at the other patrons, or at the poor guy behind the counter who looks like he isn't sure if he should continue prepping their beef bowls or not -- she keeps her eyes on his. Not a challenge, but an attempt to make it clear that she's not lying.] Not with him, anyway. It's hard to explain, but... one of the ways I can awaken a Persona is after spending time with my friends and forming a true bond with them, that friend gives me the strength to awaken a new power within my soul. Not consciously or anything, but-
[She shrugs helplessly. The fine details are things she never needed to worry about -- that's what Theo and Igor were for! And it has to sound like nonsense now that she's saying it aloud, but it is true.]
I don't even know if I can summon Personas if it's not the Dark Hour. And even if it were possible, I'd still need a special tool to do it, and I don't have it here.
RIP that poor guy
But... she isn't lying. Where then, does Metatron fit in? Or any of the demons she apparently has, inside her soul. She's explaining so much, and he'd only scratched the surface of what he'd been explaining himself.
Tentatively, he sits back down. It's a small measure of trust, at the very least. He still looks defensive, though.]
I don't know what a Persona is. [ He starts, slowly. ] But I'll tell you that I was the winner in that War I was telling you about I'm the one who became the King of Demons, and with that power, I waged my war against God and angels both.
[ Which is what he would have said, far more delicately if he'd been able to build up to it instead of being confronted by Metatrons presence. ]
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Why did you wage war against them? [she asks softly. There's no judgement in her voice, just honest, quiet curiosity. Considering it sounds like they'd trapped demons in the Yamanote Circle, and just let humanity try to figure out how to solve the problem... she could understand if it were for revenge, or wanting to protect the other people on Earth. More than that, she can't really judge. Even after what she and the other members of SEES had been through, it still seems way beyond her realm of experience.]
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[ It sounds so noble. But it'd been selfish too. ]
Both He and the angels wanted me to become their Messiah, to lead the people under his rule. To become the pawn of a tyrant who had no problem with killing people or taking away their free will whenever it was we humans did something he didn't like.
I said no, and turned the tables.
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Eventually, she exhales quietly through her nose again and shrugs one shoulder, the faintest of smiles curving her lips.] I dunno much about God, honestly. That one, anyway. But... to me, it sounds like you did the best thing you could do to protect everybody. I can understand that.
[Like sealing away Nyx, sometimes an impossible choice has to be made because someone has to be the one to step up. Someone had the potential to do it.]
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[And he still hasn't, and will never forgive the Angels or God for doing such a thing.]
He'd even tried to convince my friends that I was the real tyrant, that I'd go mad with power and start killing people indiscriminately. I never harmed a single person, for the record. No matter how many times they came after me.
[And in the end, sure, he'd managed to turn it around on the angels, to make most people hate them instead, but... Still. It makes him worried about what Yuzu really feels about him, about how Midori thinks of him. Even if he'd done the technically good thing, he's still a demon now. He'd still given up his humanity.]
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It's hard to think about an aspect of her soul hurting someone she likes, but -- well, she's not an idiot. She'd learned a little about each one of her Personas every time they awakened, and the sad thing is, she can't be surprised. Metatron isn't too dissimilar to Aigis, a stern figure who doesn't compromise. She presses her lips tightly together and finally lets herself break eye contact, staring down at her hands for a moment with another sigh and a nod.]
I'm sorry that happened to you. [Her fingers tighten around each other, then she takes another breath and squares her shoulders as she glances up to meet his eyes.] And... if you really don't want to be around me 'cause of that, I... understand.
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[The disgust, the anger, disdain and hatred are pretty palpable when he says that, that it's Metatron he doesn't like, doesn't want to be around.]
I can't help what I am, and as long as he's around, I don't really know if I'll be able to keep control of myself. The wills of the other Bel demons is mine too, and angels are something we can't tolerate, but Metatron is the worst of them as the right hand of God.
[He's going to... occupy his hands now, back to the glass of water that was put down for them earlier so he can take a sip. It really isn't her, but demons are reactionary by their very natures, and prone to their whims, as destructive as they might be. Kotone might very well be in danger if he gets another sense of that Angel.]
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I never had a problem having demons and angels in my heart at the same time, [she admits finally, not much above a murmur. It almost seems like she should feel guilty about that, but it's true.] They've always followed my commands when I had to fight.
[Or, like, again, she knew about it theory, from their history, but practically speaking, it had never been a problem.]
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[It'd been an edge case, but maybe Kotone was similar to Amane in her capability to hold both for a good length of time. After all, Amane had gone what, years? With Jezebel nestled deep against her soul, feeding on it as she pleased.]
So, if you can handle that, then you must be pretty strong. I don't envy you at all for it, though.
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[That, at least, she can be firm about. Akihiko and Mitsuru had had their Personas for years. Shinji -- well. Shinji's different.
Her hand goes to her heart again as she tries to figure out how to explain it as simply as possible -- and more than that, explain it in such a way that he doesn't storm off and leave. Saying that her Personas are her is a surefire way to just make him never trust her again, isn't it?]
My first Persona was Orpheus. For most people, Personas are like... they're a reflection of your resolve and a reminder that everyone dies. You have to accept your own inevitable death to awaken your potential. Most people only awaken one Persona. I'm... a little different.
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Kazuya watches her carefully, studies her expression and her body language. Not because he's looking for if she's lying or not, he already knows she isn't, but because he wants to know just how comfortable she is explaining this. This thing that doesn't really make any sort of sense.
It sounds like demons, and it sounds like angels.
He's slow to respond, calling to mind a previous conversation he's had while he's been here.]
Your personas. They take the form of gods, demons, angels, folk heros, and mythological monsters?
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Yeah. [There's a note of audible surprise in her voice as she tilts her head, her own eyes flicking over his face.]
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[A powerful thing, apparently. But there's more than that. She's confirmed it, that what she knows as "Persona's", are the very same creatures that he knows of as "Demons".
The very same type of creature that he is now.
Kazuya looks down, swirls his glass of water a little, contemplative.]
Agi, zio, bufu, garu. These words sound familiar at all to you?
[They had to Akechi. Or at least, Dia had.]
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[It's been a little over a month since that final battle, but she wouldn't forget that so easily. Her brow scrunches up with the remnants of her confusion, but-- well, he knows what he's talking about. "Demons" seems like a weird kind of catch-all term for things that aren't always "demons" in the traditional sense, but... well, it's just another word for them, isn't it?
After a moment's further contemplation, she shrugs one shoulder and decides to just accept it. It does beg another question, though-]
Do you know what a Shadow is?
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It makes the mystery between them that much deeper. There's something here, and he's not sure what it is yet.]
I'm guessing you're not just talking about the kinds of shadows you see on a sunny day. So no, I don't.
[So he shakes his head.]
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They're like... monsters formed from the dark parts of human consciousness, I guess. You said demons were threatening you... it was Shadows for us.
[Extremely over-simplified, but true! Please don't make her go into detail, that's so much effort.]
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[He clarifies, but doesn't linger on it too long. Monsters formed from the dark parts of human consciousness also... somewhat describes demons, though they're certainly more like an animal than any sort of... cognitive being.
He drums his hand again.]
I think our worlds might be connected, but separated.
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I guess so.
[It's weird to think about another world with angels, demons, and other parts of the collective unconscious just existing? Able to enter the real world? But sure, why not. More importantly-]
... Where does this leave us, though?
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He's not sure how much he's willing to trust that, at least just yet. He's fairly certain he still has a few scars from where holy water got splashed on him during their battle, before his power had become fully realized.]
... So long as I don't sense him, I'm willing to stay. But understand that I can't be around that sort of power without some sort of retaliation if you can't keep him under control.
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[Could she lose control of her Personas? Shinji had. It had never really been something she'd worried about in the past, but... this place has messed with her mind already before. It could do it again.
If she loses control of her Personas, someone will have to stop her. If Mitsuru's not around, maybe Kazuya can manage it. She stares down at her glass of water, then straightens in her seat and nods.]
Okay. If something happens and for the first time I can't... then I'm counting on you to stop me.
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[But he says it slowly, hesitantly. Despite his threat from earlier, he really doesn't want to hurt anyone. Could he get away with that, if her persona goes out of control? Surely Metatron would only care about him, if that were the case.
He flexes his hands against the counter, taps his foot idly.]
I'm really sorry for how I acted.
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It's fine! I understand.
[It's not fine -- it still really hurts, that he's forming an opinion of her based on something that she didn't even know about, let alone was responsible for -- but it's okay. Dwelling on it or being sad about it won't make it better, so...! Best to just hide that feeling behind a smile as she drums her fingers lightly on the counter.]
D'you still want to eat with me...? You can say no.
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... I'd like to, if you still want to.
[ He'll try. He trusted Amane, and Amane had trusted in him even after he made his decision, so sorely he can handle doing the reverse. ]
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Thanks!
[And she turns, just enough to catch the eye of the person working and nod. Yes please, keep making their beef bowls. She's not as hungry now as she had been, but surely by the time the meal is ready, her appetite will be back!
Glancing back toward him, her smile softens a little as she nods.]
I mean it. ...Thanks.
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