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[orphne]

[She almost, almost calls him instead of texts him. Almost. But she doesn't want to spook him like a skittish animal, so texting it is.]

Wait, you're leaving out too many details, Dazai-san! Start from the beginning!!

[nullificates]

you've told me before not to tell you, so i'm not!

[orphne]

Nooooooo tell me!!

None of the bedroom stuff but some of the other details!!

[nullificates]

what do you want to know?

[orphne]

How'd you get both the boyfriend and the Chuuya??

Did you talk to them like I told you to??

[nullificates]

fyodor, yes, chuuya, absolutely not? i told you that it was an insane idea on your part!

[orphne]

[Scrunches up her face a little... this feels wrong...]

Why is Fyodor the boyfriend and not Chuuya?

[nullificates]

why the fuck would i date chuuya kotone???????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

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[orphne]

[AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH FUCKING MORONS. GORO AND DAZAI BOTH. IDIOTS!!]

[orphne]

I thought the boyfriend title meant like.... being exclusive?? Is that not what it means where you come from??

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[nullificates]

koto-chan why would i be exclusive with chuuya??????????????????????????? he doesn't want me that much either!!!!!!!!

please think about this well

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[nullificates]

i would say it means commitment. whether you're exclusively committed is some other matter altogether, wouldn't you say?

[orphne]

I don't really think I get it...

But are you happy, Dazai-san?

[nullificates]

you'll get it when you're older, or have been in love a couple of different times!

... i'm scared!!! fufufufufu!!!!!!!!!

[orphne]

Oh. I don't think I've felt that, then.

But being scared is good, probably? I think it means you care.

Do Chuuya and Fyodor-san know that you're, you know. Involved with both of them?

[nullificates]

i'll be easier to explain when you do, you see!

oh. i came home, told chuuya i had slept at fyodor's, and he just said "THANK FUCK" so i'm gonna go on a limb here and say he doesn't care.

[orphne]

Mmm, I don't think it'll happen for me. I'm kind of on a time limit!

[Don't forget!]

Does Fyodor-san also not care??

[nullificates]

and you think you get to choose these things why exactly?

ah. i think he probably would care more, since he's extremely religious, but then again, we're not in the business of trying to change each other, so it's fine.

[orphne]

This isn't about me right now, Dazai-san!

Anyway, you said he "would" care more, so does that mean he doesn't know...

Are you cheating on your new boyfriend, Dazai-san?

[nullificates]

that definitely does not mean he doesn't know. he has pestered chuuya about it even before we did anything about it, aside from some things from home, so trust me, he knows!

i would never cheat on fy! i like my ideals of a painless death.

[orphne]

I super don't get it then.

Are you happy AND scared, at least?

[Asking again because it is so so important.]

[nullificates]

(what a strange little concept she keeps throwing around.)

i'm as happy as i can be.

[orphne]

That's good then.

I'm really happy for you, Dazai-san. I knew stuff would work out! Right?

[nullificates]

let's see, don't celebrate just yet.

[orphne]

Nuh-uh, I'm gonna be happy for right now 'cause I know you're terrified.

So SOMEBODY has to be happy about it, and I guess it's me!