Ah, we're not at all good for each other, Koto-chan. We can attribute that to the fact I'm not good at being human, or the other hundreds of problems we have that you don't see at a surface-level. It'll end terribly, and the fact he's not the only one I'm currently in the same conundrum with makes it all the more tempting to simply dig a hole and stay there forever.
[She's listening, she really is, but she's also furrowing her brow as if he's saying nonsense. It's a little hard to focus on the root of the matter, alcohol slowing her thoughts to moving through syrup as she thinks about it.
And then there's another person? Complicated. She'd guess Dazai is sleeping with whoever the other person is as well as Chuuya and half the town already, but. One problem at a time. She purses her lips thoughtfully and just asks,]
(funnily enough, it's someone dazai is NOT sleeping with, isn't that particularly funny? to care so much about one's feelings that he's allowing fyodor time and space? alas, either way, that question makes his face go through a range of emotions - denial, confusion, irritation.)
[She pushes herself back up onto her arms to get a better look at his face, even as her vision swims a little from the sudden movement. Her face is a weird mixture of annoyance and incredulity, because even he must know how that sounds, right?]
That's how relationships work. You're giving up before anything even happens, just in case it doesn't work out. Even if it doesn't, you really think Chuuya will leave you?
[Dazai knows better than she does how loyal he is. If Dazai leaving before hadn't been enough, why would something like a failed romance drive him away? C'mon, buddy, you're supposed to be super smart or something.]
You're just taking away his own ability to choose 'cause you're scared.
(no, no, the face is mostly because she asked him to give chuuya a chance in this whole thing. he's a control freak, has she not noticed that? he doesn't care how he sounds.)
Oh, no, I don't think Chuuya would ever leave me.
(because if he could, he would have a long time ago, but leaving and abandoning is not in his book, that's in dazai's.)
Well, duh? Absolutely? All the time? Do you see how this relationship is not great!
[She just makes a disgruntled noise. Honestly, whenever she thinks she has problems, she just has to talk to Dazai to remind herself that at least she's not as bad.]
You should talk to him. Or, you know, do your mind-reading thing you guys always do.
Talk?! Koto-chan, you're getting the weirdest drunk ideas. We never talked in all these years, and the mind-reading isn't that perfect! I'll just move here, he'll come, and I'll put him in a box forever!
(he IS stupid, thank you for noticing?)
Fyodor's easier than this, but also, ah, to be interested in a terrorist! Ah, see, my taste in men, I told you, women are best.
[Oh, your taste sucks, Dazai! She doesn't go so far as to say it, but it's so obvious in her voice. Chuuya, okay, he's a sweet guy under a loud exterior, but Fyodor? Jury's still out on that one.
One problem at a time, and she's still more loyal to Chuuya, so-]
If you've never talked honestly before, maybe it'll go better than you think! And if it sucks, you'll just want to go hide in the cave again, so nothing will change!
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... I just can't go through that again, you see.
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And then there's another person? Complicated. She'd guess Dazai is sleeping with whoever the other person is as well as Chuuya and half the town already, but. One problem at a time. She purses her lips thoughtfully and just asks,]
Doesn't Chuuya get a say in any of this?
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... Why would he? Since when should he?
(dazai SUCKS.)
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That's how relationships work. You're giving up before anything even happens, just in case it doesn't work out. Even if it doesn't, you really think Chuuya will leave you?
[Dazai knows better than she does how loyal he is. If Dazai leaving before hadn't been enough, why would something like a failed romance drive him away? C'mon, buddy, you're supposed to be super smart or something.]
You're just taking away his own ability to choose 'cause you're scared.
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Oh, no, I don't think Chuuya would ever leave me.
(because if he could, he would have a long time ago, but leaving and abandoning is not in his book, that's in dazai's.)
Well, duh? Absolutely? All the time? Do you see how this relationship is not great!
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Even if it sucks, he should still get to decide if it's something he wants! Maybe he likes you 'cause you suck!
[Wait. She snorts, then giggles, then makes another face.]
Noooo, wait I don't want to know. Please don't tell me.
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(wait-- OH. NOW HE'S GIGGLING TOO.)
I wouldn't tell you so many details, it's not something you have to worry about!! That's probably not it, though!!
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[Come on! She pouts at him from her position hovering over his chest. How is he so smart and yet so stupid at the same time.
Then she just plops down and rests on his chest again with a groan.]
You're dumb.
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his hug at least doesn't waver.)
Yep! I'd totally just toss Chuuya off a bridge, but he'd just float back and kick my ass.
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You should talk to him. Or, you know, do your mind-reading thing you guys always do.
[Uuuggghhhhh he's so stupid.]
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(he IS stupid, thank you for noticing?)
Fyodor's easier than this, but also, ah, to be interested in a terrorist! Ah, see, my taste in men, I told you, women are best.
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[Oh, your taste sucks, Dazai! She doesn't go so far as to say it, but it's so obvious in her voice. Chuuya, okay, he's a sweet guy under a loud exterior, but Fyodor? Jury's still out on that one.
One problem at a time, and she's still more loyal to Chuuya, so-]
If you've never talked honestly before, maybe it'll go better than you think! And if it sucks, you'll just want to go hide in the cave again, so nothing will change!