[He just hums, curling his legs up and out of the sleeping back, holding them close to his body. He winds up looking startlingly small, for as tall as he is.]
I'm starting to think it's wrong of me to not like talking about death, from the way you and Akechi talk about it.
[It's a keen feeling of loss as he retreats, the hurt showing briefly in her eyes before she just buries her face back into her pillow again.]
Sorry.
[She should muster up a smile, tell him it's okay! Mentally, she spins the barrel of her Personas, even though she knows there's no one from the Fool arcana that can tell her what the right thing is to say. She settles on Messiah instead, the Persona created from the strength of her friends and the bond between herself, Orpheus, and Thanatos. It's not that the Judgement arcana can help here, but more that she just wants to feel something.
She should tell him it's okay, she's the weird one! But it feels like invalidating everything she and the others had gone through to say something like that.]
I don't think either of us are wrong, [she says finally, a little helplessly. Shinji, Goro, and now Akira... it feels like everybody's slipping through her fingers the harder she tries to hold onto them. At least she'd gotten all her tears out last night, probably.] I think... we've had really different experiences.
Sorry, [she mumbles again, keeping her face pressed into her pillow for a few seconds more before finally pushing herself up with her good arm to sit up. Her smile doesn't reach her eyes at all, but it's there, and that's a start, probably, even if her heart still aches weirdly with an emotion that isn't entirely her own.]
Thanks for coming to check on me. I should get up and check on the others.
[He gets it. He sees her forcing herself to bounce back, prioritizing other people over herself. He wants to let her lean on him, he really does, but... This whole death business is more than he can handle.] They'll be fine, if they've let you sleep in this late already they probably know you need to rest.
[She pauses, partway through the motion of tucking her leg under her to push herself to her feet. It's not like everyone's in danger at the moment, and it's not like they really need a leader like this, either, huh? She really could just sleep all day.
No. That's a bad train of thought to follow. She shakes her head and leans in, just enough to bonk her head lightly against his shoulder before crawling the rest of the way out of her sleeping bag.]
I'm hungry too. Breakfast is definitely cold, but I'll find myself some lunch.
[She looks at him, and she can't help it -- she huffs a quiet laugh through her nose. In some ways, important ways, they're different, but in others, they really are the same. At least this smile is a little more genuine.]
You really should go check on Goro instead. I bet there's lot of leftovers in the fridge I can eat.
[Of her own sweets if nothing else. After all, this is literally her house, so her food is all over the place.]
You're better at that than I am, then. Waiting, I mean.
[She wants to see people now, she wants to talk to them and make sure they're doing well. Letting people take things at their own pace is so difficult for her. Again, she thinks about Shinji, but manages to hide her wince.]
So I guess if you're insisting on making me food, I won't stop you.
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I'm starting to think it's wrong of me to not like talking about death, from the way you and Akechi talk about it.
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Sorry.
[She should muster up a smile, tell him it's okay! Mentally, she spins the barrel of her Personas, even though she knows there's no one from the Fool arcana that can tell her what the right thing is to say. She settles on Messiah instead, the Persona created from the strength of her friends and the bond between herself, Orpheus, and Thanatos. It's not that the Judgement arcana can help here, but more that she just wants to feel something.
She should tell him it's okay, she's the weird one! But it feels like invalidating everything she and the others had gone through to say something like that.]
I don't think either of us are wrong, [she says finally, a little helplessly. Shinji, Goro, and now Akira... it feels like everybody's slipping through her fingers the harder she tries to hold onto them. At least she'd gotten all her tears out last night, probably.] I think... we've had really different experiences.
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'm not upset with you. I just don't like talking about it.
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Thanks for coming to check on me. I should get up and check on the others.
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[He gets it. He sees her forcing herself to bounce back, prioritizing other people over herself. He wants to let her lean on him, he really does, but... This whole death business is more than he can handle.] They'll be fine, if they've let you sleep in this late already they probably know you need to rest.
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No. That's a bad train of thought to follow. She shakes her head and leans in, just enough to bonk her head lightly against his shoulder before crawling the rest of the way out of her sleeping bag.]
I'm hungry too. Breakfast is definitely cold, but I'll find myself some lunch.
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I can make you something, [He pauses, realizing he's doing exactly what she was just a moment ago. They're both really bad at this, aren't they?]
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You really should go check on Goro instead. I bet there's lot of leftovers in the fridge I can eat.
[Of her own sweets if nothing else. After all, this is literally her house, so her food is all over the place.]
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[She wants to see people now, she wants to talk to them and make sure they're doing well. Letting people take things at their own pace is so difficult for her. Again, she thinks about Shinji, but manages to hide her wince.]
So I guess if you're insisting on making me food, I won't stop you.