[She closes her eyes, really trying to think about the options Chuuya's laying out. He says she's reliable, but that can't really be true, can it? She can't imagine what Chuuya could possibly be relying on her for.
No, power isn't quite right. Not connections, either, and not learning. Maybe some part of all of those, but not in its entirety. Or maybe it's that--]
All of those? [she ventures uncertainly, then shakes her head. No, that's not right. What is it that she wants?]
I want to be... whatever anyone needs, I think. I want to protect people and support them, be someone they can talk to and trust. Someone who can help my friends with anything, no matter what.
[Hm... It's... telling, that what Kotone wants is to be helpful to others, but it's a very vague, expansive want as well. To want to be what everyone, anyone needs, at any given moment, is something he can hear Kouyou's voice chiding him for in his head.
But how to explain that? How to even draw lines from that desire, when he's still the kind of person who struggles with it as well? He's not equipped for that.
What he can do for her, though, is--] Alright. That isn't a lot of direction, but I think I can help you learn some things, at least. I remember that naginata you had... you a martial artist?
[Funnily enough, it's something she'd talked to Dazai about before as well -- who is she, if she's not helping others? Part of having the potential to awaken dozens of different Personas was being able to switch her face at will, be whatever anyone needed her to be. Here, it doesn't feel like she's enough.
She huffs humorlessly through her nose at the question and shakes her head.]
Not really. I mean, I can use it, but I don't have any formal training or anything.
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No, power isn't quite right. Not connections, either, and not learning. Maybe some part of all of those, but not in its entirety. Or maybe it's that--]
All of those? [she ventures uncertainly, then shakes her head. No, that's not right. What is it that she wants?]
I want to be... whatever anyone needs, I think. I want to protect people and support them, be someone they can talk to and trust. Someone who can help my friends with anything, no matter what.
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But how to explain that? How to even draw lines from that desire, when he's still the kind of person who struggles with it as well? He's not equipped for that.
What he can do for her, though, is--] Alright. That isn't a lot of direction, but I think I can help you learn some things, at least. I remember that naginata you had... you a martial artist?
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She huffs humorlessly through her nose at the question and shakes her head.]
Not really. I mean, I can use it, but I don't have any formal training or anything.